Self-Inflicted
October 25, 2009
It’s another one of those nights.
I can’t sleep because I’m thinking of you. About telling you the truth. I’m thinking about last year’s Valentine’s Day.
About the cement below me and the rain above me and how i was crying and asking nobody “why why why” and the on-looking strangers saying “he’s lost his mind”. I did lose my mind. Because I was convinced I had lost your heart.
And lately I’ve been trying to stop prolonging the pain by doing exactly that.
I think it worked.
I saw a photo of you today. A photo of your wonderful smiling face.
It no longer warms my heart.
